| money |
[Feb. 25th, 2010|09:30 am] |
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I hate it. I hate that I have to have it. I hate how I rely on it. I hate that it makes the world function. Fuck you, money |
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| thoughts |
[Jan. 10th, 2010|09:50 pm] |
What is the point of anything? Ever asked yourself that? |
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| top notch |
[Dec. 16th, 2009|03:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dr. Dre | ] |
I've got the game down, and its great. I love the position I'm in right now |
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| what a ride its been |
[Nov. 24th, 2009|09:33 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cool kids | ] |
Shit, I haven't posted in this thing in ages. Life has been a crazy time lately.
I'm jamming with a few bands, a punk band and metal band. I'm pretty excited to be playing in both. The metal band keeps my chops up and pushes me to step up my game. So that's a plus. The punk band is a lot of fun and gives me a lot of room to play around and improvise and blah blah blah. I'm not going to nerd out.
I've been making some big changes in my life too. "Taking out the trash" if you will. And for the most part, I'm really happy with the decisions I've made. I'm not fully happy with everything in my life just yet, but its because I'm not done improving it.
Growing up is hard though. Things change, people change. And I'm experiencing/realizing that now more than ever and its hard to grasp. But as long as I keep control of things, I should be good to go.
See you in another 6 weeks |
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| wow |
[Oct. 11th, 2009|06:41 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  high | ] |
What a crazy ride its been.
Seriously. |
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| the wizard |
[Sep. 9th, 2009|07:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | fuck it | ] |
| [ | music |
| | down to earth approach | ] |
I'm so tired of this place. I'm not stimulated or challenged and I feel more and more distant from everything and everyone with every passing day
I want to move and start all over. Meet new people, make new memories. Have a second chance to turn things around. Ultimately, be happy with everything in my life.
In other news, I've found that relationships never seem to be over when they're over. Even when that person is a total stranger anymore
"When a war is through, I drink to me cuz I'm alive" |
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| the times, they are changing |
[Jul. 15th, 2009|08:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | fuckin bummed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | alkaline trio-sorry about that | ] |
And its evident in everything around me. I'm not stimulated anymore. My social circle has changed a ton, I'm no longer finding joy in things. Just my drums.
I work, come home, sit in my room and listen to music. And two days a week, I have band practice, with an occasional show.
I need something else, I need something new. I don't need ANYONE else, just something else.
I'm thinking about just being by myself, being a loner. Fuck, this is a shitty time. |
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| sorry about that |
[May. 26th, 2009|11:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bed | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | bummed the fuck out | ] |
| [ | music |
| | alkaline trio | ] |
I just want to be miserable and alone. Just let me do that...
I've lost touch with so many people, its sickening. All my friends are moving away and getting "real" jobs and turning into zombies. They call it growing up, but I call it selling out...but then again, I guess I sold out too. I just hate to admit it.
I'm not very social anymore. If I am, its for like an hour and then I usually duck out and try to avoid saying bye to anyone. And then I just go home and think about how things USED to be.
I feel like I need to just pack up and leave and start from scratch, but that would be "selling out" wouldn't it. So now you see my problem. Its a cycle
I just wish things were the way they used to be. I wish it was just the 6 of us and nobody else. No girlfriends (no offense girlfriends), no jobs, no moving away, nobody else, just the six of us. I need the 5 of you more than I've needed anything else, ever.
I'm so unhappy/unsettled/angry/unsatisfied/confused/unsure/lonely/sick/drunk. I could go on |
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| life is |
[Apr. 2nd, 2009|07:15 pm] |
Going by |
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| what am I going to be doing for a whole year? |
[Feb. 8th, 2009|06:47 pm] |
I'll tell you.
I just signed a lease for a house with rob, howie and kristina.
Its a sweet 4 bedroom house with a full basement and 2 bathrooms. Half acre lawn and a nice sized deck, fireplace, 2 car garage and big driveway.
I'm so excited to have these 3 roomates in a place like this.
I thought this was worthy of an update |
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